The “M” word.

I’ve talked about Slimming World a lot regarding my weight loss journey and credited them with helping me get to where I am. I mentioned the stress involved with the weekly queue at weigh in and the up’s and down’s of the impending result, but something only just dawned on me this week. When you step on those scales, one of three thing’s is going to happen, either you lose weight, gain weight or maybe just stay the same, this is classed as a “maintain” and quite often seen as a negative, even more so when you’ve been expecting the great week of behaving to show a few lost pounds. When the person in front is told “you’ve maintained,” there’s always a look of disappointment on their face, like they’ve been informed someone’s sat on the blueberry muffin they brought in for breakfast.

This week I felt I’d not done well and despite getting in a swim session the night before, thought I may have gained a pound. I’d drank a bit more than normal, and perhaps ate a few thing’s I shouldn’t, so expectations were not high. When told I’d maintained, there was a slight edge of disappointment, because even though I knew I’d done a bit crap, I secretly hoped for a slight loss, particularly after the last minute swim. I realise what I just said is an oxymoron, but that’s how your mind works at weigh in. I comforted myself in the knowledge that I’d spent time with family and done some things that I wouldn’t normally do, in short, enjoyed myself.

It wasn’t Until a few days later that the realisation dawned on me and the penny finally dropped, what I did last week, was exactly how you should behave when you get to your desired weight. Currently I’m trying to lose because I desperately need an operation, but once I do, then I now understand that I can have still have a good time and keep the weight off. I feel like making a huge fuss that the simple fact I’ve just learned is the key to a happy life, I didn’t feel I’d missed out on anything and from now on will never fear the M word again. The only problem is, I still have a long way to go and about two and a half stone to lose before I’ll be completely happy to hear it, then it will be the finest collection of letters in the world.